Longest weekend ever..

And I didn't think that was possible. Every single one of my plans this whole weekend fell through, so I spent the entire time sitting at home alone (with Mak) doing nothing. And since I have no internet, nor do I have cable, it was extremely boring. I went through three books in two days. So needless to say, I did a lot of thinking. Not good.

I have been talking to MaKenzie's father a little bit more. He hasn't seen or spoken to Mak in about two months, but I'm trying to be the bigger person, and I suggested that we move on from the past, and start fresh. I want to have a better 'relationship' with him, for MaKenzie. I don't want her to be around anything negative, and I don't want her to go through what my brother did with my parents divorce. So he and I have been talking a little bit more, being more friendly. He's been calling to talk to Mak almost every night for the past week, and I know she enjoys that. So we'll see how it goes. I just don't want her heart to get broken. Mine has been broken enough for the both of us the rest of our lives.

Lately I've really missed writing poetry. I haven't done it in quite awhile, but I miss having the satisfaction of writing something that is entirely mine. I just came seem to get back into it though. I haven't produced anything worthwhile in over two years. Back in high school, I would churn out 3-4 poems a week. I don't know what to do to get over this "block" and get back into the swing of things. Hmpf.